Today was... decent. No crying again. I'm doing pretty well at the moment. Doing a lot of thinking. I have so many options right now. I'd like to make the best choice.
Andy called this morning to ask why I wasn't going to Gram's for Thanksgiving. He asked if it was because of Amber. Well, yeah, but I'm not going to say that. Mom answered and told him no. It's not that I'm trying to prolong a fight or whatever. I just have no desire to spend hours around her. I'd rather go to Jim's house and relax.
The phone rang this afternoon. The caller ID came up with Amber's number. I answered it. Amber realized it was me and hung up. I was pretty pissed. Not because she hung up on me. I'm pissed that she gets away with acting like that. If I did that I'd be ripped a new one by my mom. So what did I do? Went downstairs and said to my mom, "I just wanted to let you know Amber called and hung up as soon as she knew it was me." Then I went back upstairs. Mom called my phone about 10 minutes later to say she called Amber back and left a message saying how rude that was and she has to get over it, blah blah blah. I've already told mom I won't be rude to her. I'm not going to search her out and have a conversation, but I'll be civil for my mom and brother. She also called Andy in case he was the one trying to call. (They use each other's phones.) He seemed a little upset by the whole exchange. Mom figured they'd end up fighting then. (Did I mention it's their 1 year anniversary?) I told mom that I didn't tell her Amber hung up to start any fight. I told her because I'm tired of being on the defensive 24/7. I get yelled at by my mom before I even do anything. I told her she has every right to yell at me when I'm mean, but I'd appreciate it if she eased up on saying shit to me. I know I'm far from perfect. I just want mom to know that I'm trying. This isn't the first time Amber has avoided me in such a rude way. I came home on Halloween and went right upstairs to change. She was sitting in the car waiting for my brother before I even came back down. Tell me who's being immature here. I admit I don't plan on hanging around to chat, but I'm not going to bolt as soon as I see her. I'm not offended. I couldn't care less how she acts to me. Like I said... I want mom to know. And I think she's finally starting to get it. Stacy repeating how Amber would slash my tires and "beat me up" if I came near her house and now this? Yeah... she gets it. I think. Tags: drama
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